Holiday Dress Debacle

I think I am having a mental breakdown relating to weight issues. Over the last 4-5 years I have gain some serious weight. Most of the weight was put on due to depression, not to mention I love rich chocolaty deserts. Any who, over the 4-5 years I've managed to pack on 60 additional pounds. I know it did not happen over night but now that it has happened I really feel upset about the whole situation.


For the first time in my life I feel like I was discriminated for being overweight. Now I am a bit insecure with my weight so I may be over reacting, but we all know in most cases what we perceive and feel become real....regardless if it's true or not. So last week my job had it's annual holiday bash and I wanted to look as cute as possible. I went to Macy's to find a semi-formal holiday/cocktail dress. I went up to the first sales lady and asked her where I could find a semi-formal cocktail dress, she looked at me briefly and said, "You need to go down stairs". Now I came in down stairs and I did not see any clothes on that floor. I figured the lady was confused so I asked another sales lady the same question. She said, "What size are you looking for", feeling a bit embarrassed I replied, " Um.... size 16 will be fine" she said, "You'll find what you are looking for down stairs."


So I decided I would go back down the escalator because maybe I missed something coming in. I got a panoramic view of the floor coming down the escalator and all I see is stoves, refrigerators, Christmas trees, power tools and washing machines. I wonder around and in a small dimly lit section next to the refrigerator section there appear to be an area with clothes. I ask the sales lady, " Where are your semi-formal dresses", again she ask, "what size do you wear?" With a tinge of frustration I let her know that I wear a size 16. She then says, "All the dresses we have in that size are on the back wall." I turn around and see about 6 dresses on the wall, of course they were all ugly, frumpy and down right horrible looking.


I was pissed. I yelled this is Macy's damn it...all y'all got in the whole fucking Macy's in a size 16 is six dresses. You gotta be kidding, not to mention the plus size section is in the basement next to a damn Frigidaire. Needless, to say I stormed off feeling less than beautiful...fat and did I say pissed off.

Not to worry I found a dress but I had to look at quite a few dress,at quite a few stores before I found it. I just don't understand why people seem to think that overweight people are less than human, like we don't have any money to spend. Or worst than that, if we spend our money we will take whatever we can get. The design or fit doesn't matter.


I will be doing a few post of my weight loss mission so expect a few more posting regarding this issue. Because as much as I love to eat I have to lose the weight. It won't be easy.....but yall gonna hear all about it

Pre Turkey Day Ramblings

Hello Internet friends and family. I hope everyone is gearing up to have a fabulous turkey day. Today I enjoyed a day off from work that was truly needed. I relaxed at the beauty salon and toured a gym today, otherwise I just chilled. I love days when I have time to relax, I don’t feel rushed, I can drive like a normal person and just take my time…..loves it.


I have not spent thanksgiving with my family in a few years so I am kind of excited. My grandma is baking me a 7-up (my fav) and I can’t wait to get into her kitchen and throw down! Yeah I know I am suppose to be on a diet ……but one day of good eating won’t kill me.


Let’s not forget this a time for thanksgiving…..so be thankful. Yes times are rough, but if you are healthy, have friends and family that love you, you have something to be thankful for. Remember someone out there has it worst than you, so it could always be worst.


I wish you and your family a wonderful, fabulous and outstanding thanksgiving. Peace and blessings to you and yours.

Gays Mad As Hell At Black Folks

In my mind California has always represented a place where anything goes. A place where full of liberal minded people that accepted folks they way they were.
Well it seems that prop 8 has shown a different side of Cali. Instead of the state making a firm decision on gay marriage they place the burden on the people. Prop 8 represents a ban on gay marriage. The voters had an opportunity to decide if gay marriage had a home in California. Surprisingly , the people decided to ban gay marriage in California.


WHO IS THE BLAME?

There seem to be a big fat finger pointing at black people. According to the Washington Post:

Seven in 10 African Americans who went to the polls voted yes on Proposition 8, the ballot measure overruling a state Supreme Court judgment that legalized same-sex marriage and brought 18,000 gay and lesbian couples to Golden State courthouses in the past six months.

It is believed that blacks voted for the ban on gay marriage due to religious beliefs and homophobic reactions. It is not a secret that the black community is not accepting of gay people and as a black person I feel this may have played a critical part in the decision of black voters.

However , there is another component that could have swayed the black vote. The gay community says the ban on gay marriage is comparable to the civil right violations that blacks endured. This may have angered some black people…. Cuz it sure as hell angers me. Gay marriage is a issue but I would not place it in the same category as blacks and the civil rights. I’m not going to say that a person chooses to be gay because some feel they were born gay. People can hide their sexual preference, people can not hide their skin color.

What I find disturbing is the racism shown towards black when prop 8 did not past. There was a protest in West Hollywood , many blacks were referred to as niggers and blamed for the banning of gay marriage. Rod 2.0 reported the following


Geoffrey, a student at UCLA joined the massive protest outside the Temple of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints in Westwood. Geoffrey was called the n-word at least twice.


“It was like being at a klan rally except the klansmen were wearing Abercrombie polos and Birkenstocks. YOU NIGGER, one man shouted at men. If your people want to call me a FAGGOT, I will call you a nigger. Someone else said same thing to me on the next block near the temple...me and my friend were walking, he is also gay but Korean, and a young WeHo clone said after last night the niggers better not come to West Hollywood if they knew what was BEST for them.”

Los Angeles resident Ronald says he and his boyfriend, who are both black, were carrying NO ON PROP 8 signs and still subjected to racial abuse.
Three older men accosted my friend and shouted, "Black people did this, I hope you people are happy!" A young lesbian couple with mohawks and Obama buttons joined the shouting and said there were "very disappointed with black people" and "how could we" after the Obama victory.

Gays and lesbians if you listening blacks did not cause your community to lose out on prop 8. Let’s face it…it’s not enough black people in the state of California to swing an ENTIRE vote. There has to be some participation from other races. And for all the white gay folks…chill out with all the name calling. It’s not necessary to get throw racial blows, especially when the gay community fights against being called names like bull dagger, dikes and faggots.

Personally I believe that gays should be allowed the right to marry. I’m not concened with the religious side. God is the only one who can judge. Gay and lesbian people are not hurting anyone by loving one another. But I no longer live in California so my opinion or vote don’t count. But I can see this issue going to the Supreme Court.

What’s your opinion is gay marriage a civil rights issue?

Meet the New First Family

The people have spoken and they have chosen Barack H. Obama to be their fierce leader. To that I shout, "Thank You Lord, This is the day that the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it."

Seriously folks, my heart is so full of pride it could bust. This is history and I feel honored to be apart of it. Many black people were overwhelmed with emotions, tears flowed like the Mississippi River. I know the ancestors were in heaven dancing.

To me the emotions shown by many blacks represented the pinned up aggression that we all have learned to live with. The silent non spoken of glass ceiling was shattered last night. Yes we've always been told that we can be whatever we wanted.. but we never dared believe we can hold the highest position in the land.

But today is a new day. Yea I know racism and other injustices will not end today, but I feel this is the bridge to change. Also I feel confidant in telling my nephews with hard work, determination, character and integrity you can do and be ANYTHING.

Did y'all see when Michelle and the girls came on stage... it was pure magic. I love the way this man loves his wife and kids. It's a love so deep, it's more of a thing than an emotion. You can almost see the love this man has for his family. I desire to obtain a love similar to what Barack and Michelle have.

Anyway..... I partied until 3am. I was feeling good last night and when I went to work this morning I was all smiles. Many of my co-workers were smiling and laughing and talking about where they were when they heard the news.

However, there was some people who was still sour about McCain losing. They really did not want to talk about it and for the first time in two years did not want to talk about politics. Last week I could not get these same folks to shut up, oh well.

Did ya'll see all those people in Grant Park last night. The people in Chi Town represented last night didn't they. They said it was at least a million people there to hear Obama speak last night. There were people of all ages, shades and backgrounds. I especially got tickled when I saw about a thousand people dancing and celebrating in front of the white house. I bet George was a lil pissed to see people outside his door celebrating the end of his term. Not to mention the people all over the United States blaming him for this mess and voting in record numbers to make sure that the republicans did not stand a chance. The republicans probably hate George and Sarah Palin right about now

Please keep Obama and his family in your prayers. I do worry that someone may try to harm him. I may be over cautious but we are still in Amerikkka, and a total change has not taken place.

In the words of Sam....It's been a long, long time coming but I know change gon come...oh yes it will

Making History Tonight

Oh my Gosh Obama may actually win. May we are having a watch party at my house and we are partying like it's 1999. The faces about are the faces of voters that will hopefully help Obama become the First Black President of the United States Of America.


I went to vote at 5:30am this morning and I was full of energy and hyped. I never felt so on purpose. I felt like for the first time in a long time the world would hear my voice and the voice of many other Americans as we screamed "we want change" with our votes.

I've never seen so many people pumped up about an election. This election brought everybody out. While in line to vote there was so much love generating from the people in line. People were sharing chairs,food and making the best out of what could have possibly been a long wait.


I am so excited for our country. This time I think we can really do it. This time I think we are gonna take. The word says "Take it by force" and I believe that is exactly what is gonna happen tonight. John McCain might as well get ready to go back to the Senate because the Obamas got 1600 Pennsylvania street decorated already.

So far McCain is winning in Missouri but only 49% of the polls are reporting. But lets face it some people will never vote for Obama regardless of how qualifed he is.

CNN JUST CALLED IT OBAMA WON YALL. HELL YEAH... THAT'S WHAT I'M TALKING BOUT. CHANGE BABY,