Well I finally decided that I'd had enough and broke up with my guy. Man this was the worst and longest break up I've ever endured. Have you ever tried to tell someone that you were not feeling them, but tried not to hurt their feelings at the same time? I tried to end this relationship four times, and each time he would talk me back into giving it another try. This guy is really a nice person, but not the person for me! Every time I would try to walk away he would bring up everything from our great sex life to God. And me being me, I try to stay conscience of every one's feelings so I kept giving it a try. Finally last night was the straw that broke the camel's back. It got down right ugly, he would not accept that I wanted to end the relationship. I started to feel like I was applying for a mortgage application and my job was to convince the bank that I was a worthy candidate. He would not leave my house, he wanted to talk all night, he forced me to stop being nice. The words finally fell from my mouth, " Dude, get the hell out of my house...... this relationship is OVER." Can you believe that he would not leave....... so the boys in blue gave him a personal escort. Normally, I would feel bad, but this time I feel like he finally gets it. Being single is one thing, but being connected to the wrong person is worst than being single. Hell at least you can deal with yourself, but dealing with the wrong man/woman takes all kind of bending, patience, conforming and a whole lot of uncomfortable internal feelings. I wish that brother the best of endeavours, I hope he becomes a success, but our time was up! Tell me why some folks just gotta make it hard? Why does it have to get ugly before some people accept the finality of some situations? All I gotta say is, I am happy to be single again. After this "experience" I am done with dating for awhile. Sometimes a breather is the best thing a person can do, it refreshes the mind, body and spirit. Life is nothing but a big ole lesson, the good teaches and the bad teaches too.
3 comments:
glad he's gone, terrible it ended the way it did, glad it didn't go south like it could of, hope he's not touched in the head, get a dog, a pistol, or a knife protection is a girls bestfriend.
I understand how you feel and where you are coming from...I had this happen to me in 2000 and had to remove myself from a 15yr relationship...one of the hardest things for me was the feeling of responsibility I felt about leaving him, because of the life HE was leading.
You are did the best thing in letting this go...now you take time out for you! Get to know and learn you again, before going back out there, because the game has changed...good luck!
Peace & Blessings,
SassyScribe
It aint over to the fat lady sing...oh wait Aretha did sing at the inauguration...ok I guess its over...
Girl what was on your mind when you was dating him anyway. No I aint no hater...I just kept my mouth close cause everyone thinks I am a hater.lol.lolololol
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